As I emerge from the shadowy realms of deep winter, I want to update you on the changes since the Solar Eclipse portal of last August.
In October of 2017, I sold the house and land where I have lived for 24 years, and where I have held ceremony in the sweat lodge for 15 years.
It started on Christmas Day, 2016. I looked out the back window and a flock of about 20 turkeys walked in a circle all around the house! We don't get turkeys here that often. I've seen this many turkeys in the year twice in 24 years
As the ground thawed last spring, I realized it was time to change the energy.
I had bought the place with my ex-husband, who died in 2016.
I had completed raising my sons in that house, and they are both grown men, nearly 40!
I began my adult spiritual journey by the agency of that sacred land.
I loved that land as my body, and couldn't imagine not living there.
I struggled to keep the land, and maintain a very old farmhouse.
I began to feel the tug of something new – a new way of living in the world.
I felt how as an elder, a Crone Queen, I was using too much of my energy to hold and manage this land, and my personal history enmeshed in it.
I was too attached to that land, that home, and my dreams for the land.
It was time to let go. Time to change the energy.
In May and June we worked hard to get the house and land spiffed up to put on the market. I worked with the best realtor, Annie Higbee of Downhome Maine. Intuition told me that Annie's energy as well as her expertise would be the right support for the sacred letting go of this land.
In the summer Solstice sweat lodge, I got the crystal clear message that I am being repotted!
My mission and my personal growth and fulfillment of purpose depends on moving to a bigger pot. What that pot looks like is an unfolding story. Knowing that I had to leave the land in Hope made the letting go a bit easier, even possible. Yes, it began to be joyful!
I made a ceremony calling in the next caretaker of the sacred land. I made a ceremony opening myself to the call of my new land. Spirit and I were partners in this repotting project.
Remember the turkeys on Christmas Day?
The listing for the house went live around July 7th.
Starting that week, I was visited by turkeys every day.
Throughout July and August I had two big jobs that kept me close to home:
Ceremonial decommissioning all the sacred sites, dance arbors, and the Peace Chamber sites
And healing from Lyme infection.
I noticed that a flock of five adult turkeys would bring their chicks through the back yard every day.
Day by day I watched the young turkeys grow. They were two sizes, meaning that one clutch had hatched earlier by a few weeks.
One day they surprised me by all flying into the trees! They were roosting every night in the woods just beyond the backyard meadow. What a blessing!
I would wake at dawn to watch them fly down, and then observe at sunset when they gathered in the meadow to feed and fly up to the high roosts for the night.
Turkey medicine signifies gathering the harvest. I sensed that they were helping in the process of the sale of the house. I also felt they might be for the new owner as much as for me. The turkeys were calling them in.
Interesting that they day we signed the sales contract in September, the turkeys went away! They stopped roosting in the trees, and I did not see them on a feeding stroll through the meadow and garden.
Their work on the land was complete.
There was one more example of animal medicine power.
On the last day of negotiations post inspection period, I was taking down the sweat lodge for good. Annie called with some final information, and I was taking a deep breath, because this was it. SOLD!
I looked down at the sacred mound. A two foot long garter snake emerged from the rocks, and raised its head. It stayed there throughout the conversation. I took it to mean: Get on with this! Shed your skin. Shed this house and land. Time for rebirth!
And so with the help of the animals, I made the transition.
The animals said GO! They called in the new owners, a wonderful young family who is farming the land, and they are pretty excited about all the ceremony we did there for so many years.
The last week as we were moving and getting ready for the closing, it even felt that the land was kicking me off! The land was ready to welcome the new custodians. My work here in Hope is finished.
It is done.
At first I was in “transplant shock” as a seedling will be when first repotted.
Through the dark of winter, I felt alone and homesick.
I have felt bereft and ungrounded walking on concrete every day.
I miss my sacred fires and the sweat lodge.
The intense ride through the August Leo eclipse portal ushered in all the change I've just described. In the months of change and darkness – Autumn and Winter – I descended into a cave of fertilization and gestation. It takes time to integrate change. I was not idle in the cave, though I was not so visible.
I commune with the Dark Goddess, often as Lilith, almost daily. She accompanies me in the underworld initiatory journey that is Priestess Path.
Right after my move, I studied with my coach Vanessa Long to acquire powerful new tools so my clients can open the floodgates of transformation.
As the embers of the Imbolc fires die down, I feel my roots grow strong, and new leaves and shoots and buds forming. My repotting is taking hold.
As the Leo eclipse cycle completes with a partial solar eclipse in Aquarius, it is time to bring the messages of the Dark Goddess forward into the light.
It is time to offer the new tools, or as I prefer to call them, JEWELS, to women on their path of discovering Truth, power, and freedom.
It is time to show you what happens on the other side of the portal.