I used to hate Vision Boards. Vision boring.
I made the vision board and throughout the year it got shuffled through stacks of paper. Occasionally I tacked it to the wall. It literally gathered dust as we renovated the house in prep to sell, and it surfaced again as a difficult-to-pack object as I was moving.
That's when I became a convert to vision boards. I'll tell you the story in pictures.
At the bottom you see a picture of my house with a maple tree in fall color (green circle). I inserted a SOLD sign from my realtor's Facebook page. Even though we hadn't started the process yet, I knew I was going to call Annie Higbee to be my realtor. No one else was allowed to touch my house!
In October we signed the sale contract and prepared to get moved by the November 2nd closing date. The next picture is the one I took of the real sold sign in October 2017. Holy moly! My Unconscious Mind took my picture literally!
Next, look at this detail circled in red on the vision board. And look at what I have in the house I am currently renting. How did I live without a claw foot bathtub for 25 years? I have one now!
One more, that I just noticed as I was writing this post:
Circled in Yellow is a jeweled key with a goddess image on it. I chose this image because it reminds me of my spiritual path: the priceless, jeweled, precious journey of my deepening and growing relationship with the Divine Feminine. This fall, I joined ALisa Starkweather and 30 sisters on the Priestess Path.
These pictures are at the bottom of the Vision Board, as if they are foundational parts that had to happen before the other things can come in.
This week I am reviewing the elements of this Vision Board, and checking: Do I really desire this? What makes my desire more clear, specific, and vivid?
PS. I had a LOT of FOCUSED ACTION on getting the house sold. I also had people in my life working on the same goal. They had my back big time: My partner Charlie and my realtor Annie, among others.
Vision Boards require action, both inner and outer!
I am a convert to vision boards now.
Lilith stands for soul-level integrity, the kind of authenticity that will have you sacrifice rather than compromise. This is powerful. And it has a sharp double edge.
Lilith in the Garden of Eden was Adam's first wife, the ORIGINAL WOMAN. She was created by Divine at the same time as Adam.
She knew who she was. She knew she was worthy. She knew she was EQUAL. She knew she was divine.
When she was ordered to give up her equality and submit to man and God, she left.
Why was leaving her answer? Yes, it speaks to us of soul-level integrity. She would not compromise her truth. We women need that modeled for us. We need to own Lilith's integrity for ourselves.
Yet, She gave up more than her birthright in the Garden. When she left she gave up the option to tell her own story. History is written by the victors.
Lilith became a demon not a goddess. She was supplanted by Eve, a woman that was made from man, with the design that she would be submissive to man, as Lilith would never be.
Through Eve, woman's natural power was usurped and turn to propagating and defending patriarchy. Eve's children survived. (See Part 2.) She taught them that men held the power and women were subject to men. Women derive power through their relationship to men. She taught them that all that Lilith stands for is evil.
We begin to understand how women unconsciously participate in their own suppression, and upholding the patriarchy. It is a self-perpetuating system in that way. (How could 54% of voting white women have voted for Trump? That's how.)
Wait, let's back up a minute.
The story that Lilith left the Garden – is that HER story or patriarchy's story?
In the Center of the Garden stood a Tree whose fruit Adam and Eve were forbidden to eat. This was the called the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.
When Eve went to the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, who did she meet there?
The Old Testament Bible says she met a serpent, which I learned was Satan, aka The Devil. Many older stories, as well as artists throughout time, depict the serpent who told Eve to eat the fruit as LILITH.
*** What if Lilith never left? ***
What if the tree at the Center of the Garden belonged to her – to the Goddess?
The sacred tree is ancient and universal sign of the Goddess, as is the Serpent. The oldest Sumerian stories of Lilith say she lived in the Goddess Inanna's Sacred Tree.
What if Lilith spoke with the voice of the Goddess, saying to Eve, “There is another way. Remember who you are. Remember who I am.”
This is the story Lilith Crone whispers to us. We carry this story in our cells. It is a truth that speaks to us through all that is feminine in Nature, in our bodies, through our orgasm.
Lilith has a different story to tell than the one passed down by the patriarchy.
It is up to us to remember and tell it.
I'll be back soon to share a video speaking of some of the challenges we overcome as daughters of Eve remembering Lilith.
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Art: Lilith Temple 1
In Part one of Lilith: Triple Goddess, I introduced the three faces of Lilith as a Triple Goddess.
When one aspect of the Triple Goddess is active, the other two are also present. At first I did not think that Lilith shows up as Maiden/Mother/Crone. My listening throughout the day reveals that she is Maiden/Mother/Crone as the Dark Goddess.
***Lilith Maiden ***
Lilith is the Wild Feminine. Untamed and untamable. In the ancient Sumerian texts, Lilith was the original femme fatale. In the Hebrew story, she was “first wife, who refused to lie underneath Adam during sex. She insisted that she belonged on top, and would not submit to the man or God.
In an apparent fit of rashness, she abandoned Eden rather than submit to being controlled by man.
This feels like the shadow of the Maiden, who was never a “maiden.” Lilith has always stood for limitless sexual appetite, a quality demonized as succubus: Her erotic appetite literally sucks the life out of a man.
Men learned to fear the sexual power and desire of women. Women internalized this fear, and so began millennia of slut-shaming which forced women to deny their own erotic nature, and participate in their own repression.
Lilith the Wild Feminine disappeared into the realm of shadow – that which women and men alike **do not want to know about ourselves** – and which keeps bubbling to the surface in witch burnings, rape, sexual abuse, sex trafficking and slavery, and legal restrictions to women's control of their own bodies and health.
*** Lilith Mother ***
Long before there was Adam or even Inanna, Lilith was an ancient agricultural and fertility goddess in Sumeria. She was the protector of pregnant women, mothers, and babies.
When She claimed her Goddess-hood, and abdicated her place as Adam's consort in Eden, she was condemned to kill 100 of her children every day. Some stories put the number at 1000. She became the killer of infants, not their protector.
Scholars say this myth explains high infant mortality in ancient society. I don't think so.
My intuition says this is justification of genocide of the Goddess worshipping cultures. Lilith becomes complicit in the murder of her descendants.
This is a shadow that torments us to this day. The group in power decides who is worthy to reproduce and raise children.
Women considered “fallen” or of “loose morals” have their children taken from them to be raised or enslaved by the dominant culture.
Families and communities of people of color are disrupted by violence in every possible form – poverty, prison, lack of opportunity, legalized murder and brutality.
This is the aim of war: total destruction of the people and their future.
When the patriarchy made Lilith into the Demon Mother, devouring her children, she became the scapegoat, the justification for genocide. Women have been socialized to keep this system in power.
This is blasphemy. BLASPHEMY!
This is the trance that held women in its spell for eons.
I've struggled to understand how this happened. When Lilith abandoned Eden, was she abandoning the Earth to the domination of Patriarchy? Why did things get so out of balance?
I get it now.
She comes to awaken us from our trance. It is a hard awakening.
She's always been here, whispering through our intuition, quickening our wombs with her wisdom, showing herself in signs and oracles of nature, speaking through divination.
It is hard to hear when you are entranced by the spell of your own powerlessness.
Those who did hear and awaken and speak up were destroyed: killed, shamed, lobotomized.
It is dangerous when Lilith Crone calls you to awaken.
The volume of Lilith's rage, fury, lust, and grief processing through us is more than we can handle without support in remembering.
*** Waking up is an act of profound courage! ***
That is why my mission is to support women through their waking up process.
My work with Womb Wisdom and Sexual Healing gives women the strength to channel their own Lilith energy!
We living women (and men) are her hands, feet, heart, and mind.
The most important thing to remember about the Goddess is she works through us.
When enough of us remember how to hear her voice, and boldly on our vision, we'll be unstoppable. She will be unstoppable.
Lilith Crone is the Goddess who declares through us:
I am NOT Demon, I am Divine.
Yet the wrathfulness of restoring balance could scare us to death.
It will not scare us back to sleep!
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Where are the three Liliths in your natal astrology chart?
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Art: Lilith Temple 3 by Carla Sanders
Go on to Lilith Part 3.
The solar eclipse of August 21 activated Lilith energy in two powerful ways: The Demonized Goddess and the original Feminine energy of manifestation.
After the Eclipse I meditated deeply on Lilith and listened to what she had to teach me.
Lilith is a triple goddess. So many aspects of the Divine Feminine are triple goddesses. Something about Three is a magic number of dynamic creative power within wholeness that shows up in many religious systems.
When I do Divine Feminine Astrology Readings (DFAR), I look up three different Lilith points on your chart.
Lilith, the asteroid. This is a physical body in our solar system, part of the asteroid belt. Many of the goddesses in astrology are named asteroids, considered "minor planets." Like hell they are!
Asteroid Lilith is personal. She represents the disowned and repressed powers of the feminine expressed through sexuality, anger, conflict, voice, even money. Any place where women have been historically and currently denied their power by society. Her location in your chart tells how the feminine wound shows up in your own life, and the resources you have for healing.
Black Moon Lilith is a mathematical point related to the moon's orbit around the earth. It is not a physical body. It is an energetic point of power and symbolism. M. Kelley Hunter calls Black Moon Lilith "an energy vortex, an ancient pathway into incarnation and sword of truth." I understand her to be the original Feminine (mythically the first woman created by God, Adam's first wife). I connect Black Moon Lilith with the portal, and as the portal, I connect her with the Womb: the portal from the Cosmos to physical presence on Earth.
Oh she is a mystery teacher, Black Moon Lilith!
Black Moon Lilith is conjunct Saturn now, and connected to the Solar Eclipse by a trine. You don't have to know astrology to listen deeply to what this feminine energy working with -- or against??? -- the masculine of Saturn says to you. Meditate on it. So much more to say and learn about her!
Algol, the Lilith Star (aka the Eye of Medusa).
Algol is a star, a real physical body and very far away, outside our solar system. The ancients of many cultures associated her with the evil of the Demon Goddess. I see her as the Goddess who is Demonized by the Patriarchy.
She has been cast out and reviled, blamed as a cause of suffering and evil. She has become an object of fear and dread.
***She is that which we fear and dread inside ourselves***
Algol is the Lilith that we reclaim within. As we go through this initiation process of reclaiming the fierce Divine Feminine, SHE emerges from behind her terrifying mask.
Algol Lilith Star is terrible energy. She restores balance to the world. When things have gone so far out of balance, then restoration of balance may feel like disaster.
Algol is square the eclipse point. Tension and action are required.
We have to own and use her energy well. This is big Magic.
Dark Goddess on Fire.
When working with Lilith there are no sparkles or rainbows in sight.
We have our work cut out for us.
Please share what you know about Lilith. Has she visited you? Does this post give insight into your experience?
Art: Lilith Temple 2 by Carla Sanders
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In Memorium for all we lost on September 11, 2001 ~
and grief for what my country has become in its aftermath.
I took these photos with my Kodak Instamatic camera the day after I moved to New York. The first place I went was the top of the World Trade Center, an icon that marks big moments in my personal life and in my imagination to this day.
The World Trade Center, the double hub of my life wheel. It was the first place I went when I ran away to the City in 1977. Wearing Earth shoes and carrying an instamatic camera, I took the elevators to the observation deck, and took a photo survey of my new home, including the building two blocks away where I would soon be living and nursing my two little boys.
My babies learned to walk in the plaza, played in the fountain. The endless construction and deconstruction inside them fed my children for years, as my husband, the union carpenter local 608, built office after office for the junk bond fueled Reaganomicans.
In dreams, I'd imagine the Towers as a great gleaming double hanging garden, the glass blown out, the people gone, and plants, vines, flowers, birds, animals of all kinds creating a new micro-ecology every ten floors or so. I figured if we humans moved out, it would take nature about 10 years to walk off with the Twin Towers.
That's not how the WTC story ends, we know. I offer prayers to the four directions and the heart -- for those who died that day, for all our memories, for those who continually suffer the war, for those who can't make a decision, and for the rest of us who stand and pray sing dance cry for a vision.
The Solar Eclipse of the Sun is today, August 21, 2017. Called the Great American Solar Eclipse, it is the most hyped celestial event of the century – so far.
What makes this eclipse so important?
It's path of visibility is 100% on continental United States soil. The moon's shadow travels across the country from coast to coast. Millions of people will travel to the 70 mile wide stripe of totality from Oregon to South Carolina.
I had planned to be one of them, as the path of totality includes my hometown in Tennessee. However I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease this month. I deemed it wise to stay home, give my energy to healing, and staying connected to myself as I move through the eclipse portal.
This eclipse is getting a lot of political attention. It is a Leo eclipse on the degree of Donald Trump's rising sign. The brightest star in Leo, Regulus, the star of the king, is conjunct this eclipse. It is tempting to predict a downfall with aspects like this. It bears watching.
This is a more potent eclipse than usual. Every solar eclipse is a portal of change that we have to navigate with awareness. Each one ignites a 19 year cycle of transformation.
I compare solar eclipse to cosmic class 5 rapids, where you strap on your helmet, check your kit bag for water proofing and point your kayak into the chute. And RIDE.
That is true for this eclipse, with the addition that the river is on fire.
What makes this eclipse so powerful the message found in the astrology chart of the moment of totality.
Here is what you are looking at in the chart above.
Notice the triangle. The top angle is Sun/Moon conjunct at 28 Leo. You can see the star Regulus at 0 degrees Virgo right beside them.
Trace the right side of the triangle down to Uranus at 28 Aries. Trace the bottom to Pholus/Galactic Center 26 and 27 Sagittarius, and back up to the Sun and Moon eclipse.
This is called a GRAND FIRE TRINE. This is hot, fiery, explosive, active energy. This would be enough to make you pay attention to how this eclipse affects your life.
But there is even more. The Goddess is all over this chart. The eclipse triggers her in two points specifically, and they are both aspects of Lilith.
On the left angle, at 21 Sagittarius, there is an exact conjunction of Black Moon Lilith and Saturn. This makes a 2nd Grand Fire Trine superimposed on the first.
Lilith, the wildest aspect of the original feminine is standing on top of Saturn, the stern task master father figure. When Lilith is confronted by the controlling aspects of the masculine, she walks away. She will not be controlled. She does not compromise to keep the peace, or make the masculine feel OK.
Lilith stands for radical, soul-level integrity.
You can also take the perspective that Saturn is in service to the feminine, creating a structure in which she can thrive and express her power. In your personal chart, I suggest that you look at your life and see which attitude of Lilith will support your growth and power more. Do you need to leave an oppressive situation, or do you need to work within a structure that channels your energy for higher expression?
Whichever is true for you, it requires that you take conscious action now.
Notice the red line from the top angle of the triangle to the point at 26 Taurus on the right side. This is a square to Algol, the Lilith Star. This star is also called the Eye of Medusa. She represents the Demonized Goddess that the patriarchy disowned and made into the paradigm of evil.
I see her as the Universal aspect of the collective rage of the unvoiced feminine. She stand for that which is forbidden to be felt or spoken.
When this eclipse portal opens, the floodgates open. Her voice roars forth -- through YOU!
She is the Goddess, and she does not speak exclusively for women or against men. She speaks and acts against abuse, destruction, and ignorance. She speaks for justice, abundance, and remembrance of our holy relationship with Nature. This eclipse portal ignites the Goddess and makes her power available to those who listen for her voice.
We are her body, hands, feet, and voice on earth. Each of us gets to decide how we will respond, how we will show up as HER through US.
I believe this to be true: The Divine Feminine is calling. Your passage through this eclipse portal is an invitation to embrace your mission and purpose, and listen deeply to how SHE would use your gifts to make the world a more beautiful and safe place for all beings.
One last thing: Chiron. The lower red line in the chart connects the Galactic Center to Chiron. In turn, he is connected by a short blue line to Algol. This tells me that this eclipse event is a healer and teacher for the planet through the Divine Feminine energy unleashed.
You can choose to use this to heal your own wounds and step into your own power.
It is vital that you manage your energy over the next few days as this eclipse energy resonates through the earth.
The rest of the world is going to be a little -- or a lot -- extra nuts, so you want to be a extra grounded and anchored in positive intention.
On the eclipse, you dig deep. You look at life-long challenges and a long-term vision. You check in how faithfully you are living your purpose.
You look at the fears that keep you in the stagnant side pools that feel safe, but go nowhere.
You can't ride this eclipse out up a creek tied to a tree. It will rip you out and send you tumbling over the brink.
You must have your intention clear and lined up with your actions.
What you are involved with during an eclipse is amplified. How you feel, what you say, what you do.
A solar eclipse is growth factor for your intentions.
Resolve to be the one who can conquer your fears and trust the Universe and your own Soul Wisdom to get you on the other side.
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Note: First in a series on the "Great American Eclipse" in Leo next month. This is an article I wrote a few years ago about solar eclipse energy. It holds true now, exponentially!
There is a huge portal opening. Strap on your helmet and point your Kayak through the chute. Prepare to be changed.
It is the New Moon and Solar Eclipse on the Aries Equinox. The last degree of Pisces the moon's shadow eclipses the Sun, and 12 hours later the Sun enters Aries and a new astrological year.
Every eclipse is a portal, and the challenging energy before and after can feel like cosmic rapids. Every month, the new moon is a time of intention setting and visioning. When a new moon makes a solar eclipse, the intention setting takes on a new scope and weight.
On the eclipse, you dig deep. You look at life-long challenges and a long-term vision. You check in how faithfully you are living your purpose. You look at the fears that keep you in the stagnant side pools that feel safe, but go nowhere. You resolve to be the one who can conquer your fears and trust Providence and your kayak (your own soul wisdom) to get you through the chute and out the other side.
I used to teach about leaving things behind that you don't need, or that would impede your safe passage into a new state of being and possibility. I am not sure that is possible, or even preferable. The thing to do is own and rejoice in those parts of your self that seem to hold you back. These shadows are rich with blessings. You need every one of them to be who you are. Integrate these shadows and reduce them to a size that will fit in your waterproof pouch. They don't have to run the show, and they have provided important experiences and medicine for your journey.
You bring all of yourself to the class 5 cosmic rapids of a solar eclipse on the equinox, in the last degree of Pisces. You will have all of yourself – redesigned, re-imagined, rebirthed – on the other side.
Pause for a moment to get very clear on what you want on the other side of this eclipse. It may take a long time to fully manifest it. You'll live with the intentions of this day for a score of years. Today you turn a corner that will change the rest of your life, and the world with you. Be vigilant, aware, and have faith.
Look to the future you creating. Point your Soul Kayak though the portal and call in both your unseen divine helpers and your human guides, coaches, and friends. You don't have to do this alone.
I recommend a ritual or ceremony to hold you steady and keep your mind focused in a strong way. This evening I am holding fire ceremony to open the portal and get myself aligned. Ceremony gets you aligned with the energy, and allows you to be still in your center to receive the medicine of the eclipse. No matter what happens in the outside world, inside you are centered. Keep it simple.
Fire, dance, journal, a sweat or sauna, candles, and gather with others if you can.
Much love and courage. I'll see you on the other side.
“If I am a fucking goddess, turned on, tuned in and connected, channeling divine energy all the time, why am I so exhausted? Why do I feel so drained all the time? ”
If you feel like this, I'll tell you a secret.
You are goddess EMBODIED.
It is time for you to Cultivate your Passion!
Your power is sourced in your pelvis: your womb, your vulva – your sexuality.
If you are originating your power from any other place, you are cruising for burnout!
Passion and the fire of desire live in your pelvis – YOUR WOMB.
That is why I teach women about sex and orgasm.
It is why I promote erotic and physical pleasure.
It is why I am a sexual healer.
Reclaim your pelvis and your power.
Start listening to your womb wisdom.
Activate you Womb Magic.
Liberate your sex life from your bedroom and bring your juice, creativity, and orgasmic goddess energy into your work and your business.
Join me live today at 4 pm for part 2 of Cultivate your Passion.
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I'call this the New Moon Temple reading.
You can see readings by other astrologers that will talk about the Grand Fire Trine and other more commonly known aspects.
I look at a collection of minor planets that represent avatars of the Divine Feminine, as well as planets that have resonance for sexual healing and expression.
When I see the goddess planets in a powerful configuration like this Temple, I know there is a special opportunity with this New Moon.
The GATEWAY is the New Moon ~
Moon, Sun, Mars triple conjunction in the first and 2nd degree of Leo –
My astrologer Eric Francis says that New Moon conj Mars says LIVE ASSERTIVELY.
If you have been holding back, take some assertive steps forward!
These three are in a trine to Chiron, so this is a window for intentional healing, and I add that it feels cosmic in proportion. The rule of “Think Cosmically, Act Locally” applies. What you do for yourself and your intimate circle has massive meaning!
I'll describe the Temple then tell the story:
The Roof is made of a trine between Ceres and Nessus. They are both in a sextile to Pallas Athene conjunct QB1 (15760). QB1 is the planet of midwives, Hospice workers, and sexual healers: Birth, death, and orgasm.
The floor is a trine of Vesta and Juno.
The Walls are a sextile of Vesta and Ceres on the left and Juno and Nessus on the right.
Inside the Temple is a grand EARTH trine of Pallas Athene/QB1, Juno, and Vesta.
You can also see the red lines indicating Ceres opposite Juno and Nessus opposite Vesta.
These lines mark the center of this Temple and the Temple is Food and Soil: the Earth that we depend on to grow nutritious, healthy food. The earth element is not separate from water, air, and fire. It takes all four.
This is the story they tell me:
This New Moon is an opening for awareness and change around food around the world.
Ceres (Roman version of Demeter) is the Goddess of Grain. She makes food grow. When her daughter Persephone went to the Underworld she made the earth barren so the people almost died without food. You don't want to piss off Ceres.
I think she is pissed off now, by pollution, GMO, big Ag, global warming, radiation, and other toxins, high fructose corn syrup, soil depletion. Any one of them would be enough, and we have it all now. This is Nessus. He is the planet of abuse. He is also the planet of healing abuse. When we see Nessus, we see the thing that needs to heal, and the opportunity to heal it.
Pallas Athene is wisdom and justice. Justice is blind. We humans can be the agents of our own death (QB1) or rebirth. (QB1)
At the cornerstones are Vesta and Juno. Vesta is the Sacred flame of devotion. This is a sacred cause.
Juno stand for social justice. Food, health, and good living conditions are the right of all beings on the planet: two-legged, four legged, many legs. All the children of all the species.
This New Moon, how will you honor this sacred mission to make food medicine, to support food justice, and to support the health of all species that depend on and help us create the earth's soil
This New Moon is an invitation to intimate partnership with Nature.