Honoring my Ancestors this Samhain

In the Samhain season, we honor our Ancestors. I honor my DNA parents, grandparents, and great-grandparents, all the way back to the beginning of time.

The Ancestry I wish to honor in this season comes through the lineages of my teachers who have taught me and healed me, my Spiritual Ancestors.

I feel such gratitude for the priestesses and medicine people who have been my guides into the Divine Feminine.

I honor the priestess of my initiation, Nut Tmu-Ankh Butterfly Dreaming, who mentored me in the Temple of Wombn 10 Moon initiation and Orgasmic Alchemy. 

I honor my teacher Grandfather Joseph Rael, who taught me ceremony, and shared visionary teachings of the Earth and Heavens. He gave us the medicine wheel and the dance vision quests and showed how to be a true human, a medicine bag with eyes.

I honor my teachers of sexual healing and bodywork, including Nut, Hawk, Joseph Kramer, and Jeff Chaplin, along with other colleagues and mentors.

I honor ALisa Starkweather and the Priestess Path Lineage for deepening my direct experience of sisterhood and being in circle with women.

I honor my original spiritual lineage of Southern Baptist Christianity, and the farm community where I was raised. There I created a personal relationship with Divine, in the person of Yeshua, the Christ. He remains my spirit guide, my beloved masculine deity, with me in all spiritual explorations and revelations.

I honor Nature, who was my first teacher, who grounded my childhood spiritual quest firmly between the earth, water fire, air, and the vast universe represented by the Stars. You called me when I was a child, and guided my steps through life passages and teachers.

I honor so many coaches, teachers, and authors in universal law and manifesting, witchcraft and activism, permaculture and nutrition, art and astrology. They are too numerous to mention, and their number grows, for as long as I live, I will have mentors and teachers.

Ancient onesAncient Ones, by Carla Sanders

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Sometimes people get on a high horse about spiritual teachers and coaches and mentors. There is a belief out there that people should not charge money for spiritual teaching or work. That granting a certificate in the Goddess is ridiculous. That we learn directly from the Divine Feminine, from the Earth, through our bodies.

We do. And we have to learn to remember how.

This Southern Baptist girl didn't know the Divine Feminine was my healer.

I just wanted my pain to stop. I needed someone to show me the way. I was a deer in the headlights at first, and then SHE dawned inside of me. She did become my teacher, authentically, in my own time, as soon as I was ready for her. Often SHE spoke through the voice of my mentors.

I know this: without my spiritual teachers, mentors, coaches – whoever was in my life at the right moment – without them, I would be dead or very, very sick. I could not have navigated my transformation alone.

I have gladly invested money with teachers and journeys and to go to ceremonies, as well as books and courses. The priestess has to eat too!

Yes, in my healing I needed embodiment, pleasure, boundaries, deep water, naked swimming, sweat, blood, orgasms, and my feet in the muddy earth. I couldn't have gotten there without teachers.

Numb, disconnected and desperate... it was the blood and mud that led me to my first teacher.

It was sweat that led me to my second.

It was the Spider who led me to become a teacher and mentor and guide for others. I charge people money for that. It is how I earn my living.

If ALL it took to embody the Divine Feminine was walking barefoot on the earth, the patriarchy would never have gotten a foot hold.

I know that patriarchy co-opting and packaging the Divine Feminine is a thing. It may be harmful. It may be blasphemy.

And ~

What if SHE has a sense of humor, and may be more amused that angry that someone is handing out certificates in her name?

A certificate could be a lifeline to a sick unto death woman or man who needs that first gasp of air before they can feel their body, and know SHE lives in them already.

I choose to believe that the Divine Feminine is stronger than all that. SHE works through all things, all circumstances, and all ways. I have to believe it, or I could not wake up and work in this world everyday.

I honor the Divine Feminine who lives through me, as me, and who reveals her truth to me in every relationship, every inspiration, every teacher, every passage from Day to Night, Summer to Winter, Life to Death.

Grandmother Spider, Snake, Eagle, Beaver, Great Blue Heron, Fish

The great circle of ancestors who have shaped me through many lifetimes.

I honor you all.

Blessed Samhain!

 

 

 


Women of Power Say YES!

“In the dark hours of Saturday morning, I saw a vision.” This happened three years ago, right after the San Bernardino, CA, mass murder. It is the story of my Cone of Power Painting.
 
First, I must acknowledge this horror:
 
On Saturday morning, at the very moment we were gathered in the Womb Wisdom Portal to womb center at the Sun-Venus conjunction, a gunman was shooting people at a synagogue in Pittsburgh. This happened days after a racist killing spree at a supermarket in Kentucky, and a politically motivated bomb scare.
 
I am devastated by this violence and the national environment that promotes and provokes these hate crimes.
 
I am angry that the so-called leaders of my country and much of the world spread hate and encourage the violence.
 
I want to stop them!
 
Then I remember my power and why I am here. I remember why this group, Womb Wisdom Portal, is here.
 
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Let me tell you a story about another Saturday morning in the aftermath of violence.
 
I couldn't sleep because I was cold, and I was too tired to get up for a hot bath to warm up.
 
As I lay awake between midnight and 1 am, I heard the words in my head “Cone of Power”. They repeated over and over.
 
I began to see the image of a great cone of light rising from the surface of the earth, coming to a point at a great height.
 
I saw at the base of the Cone of Light a circle of women, their wombs lit up. They were the source or channel of this Cone of Power.
 
I felt that I was in ceremony with women around the world, as I lay in this vision, my inner hearth afire, my womb lit up, my core open and breathing light.
 
I saw the light and the women, and many circles of women around the world lighting up, giving their energy.
 
I saw men surrounding the women, protecting and guarding them as they worked their magic.
 
I saw all the women doing healing, teaching, and coaching with women, and I saw how each healer, leader, and woman is carrying her own necessary medicine.
 
I saw the pain and despair, the violence and blood, war and hatred, and I knew that all of us have medicine needed to heal this suffering, and bring wholeness and fertility back to the earth.
 
I saw how my work with sexuality and womb wisdom is about the goddess embodied in each woman.
 
I saw the healers who have hurt wombs, blocked sexuality, shame, shadow, darkness, numbness where there wants to be LIGHT and FIRE!
 
*** You are the ones whose power is most needed now. ***
 
I saw how the Divine Feminine is calling of us together, working as women and men to raise that Cone of Power and link together in circles of light, all over the earth, all over the Cosmos.
 
I saw that she is calling Leaders, Healers, and Teachers of Divine Feminine Truth. I heard Her calling Initiators of Women and Men into the power of their medicine gifts.
 
As I felt the light flow though me into the Cosmic Ceremony, I saw what I have been resisting.
 
It is time for me to teach the Leaders and initiate the Healers.
 
No more hesitation. No more resistance. Now. YES.
 
***
I have been saying YES for Three Years.
 
Saying YES included selling the house I had lived in for 25 years.
 
Saying YES included a renewal of my own initiation into leadership in the Priestess Path.
 
Saying YES included purchasing this new land on the Beaver Pond.
 
Saying YES includes solitude, silence, listening...
 
Saying YES includes painting this iconic image of my vision, guided by the Cosmic Crone!
 
Saying YES includes creating this Womb Wisdom Portal to gather the women in the courtyard of the Temple.
 
Saying YES includes asking YOU to say YES!
 
Will you say YES to becoming a woman of POWER?
 
Art credit: "Cone of Power" by Carla Sanders

My interview on the Shift Network's #MeToo Dialogues today



Today is the final heart-opening day of #MeTooDialogues.

My interview on astrology as a resource for people healing a lineage of abuse is on this afternoon. I hope you will Tonya and me for this conversation.

If you haven't RSVP'd yet, click here now!

 

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Here’s the schedule:

 

  • We’ll begin at 9:00am Pacific with actor Cathy Curtin and Tonya exchanging thoughts about the pressures and difficulties of being in a workplace where there are sexually violating behaviors.

  • Next up… activist, storyteller, and theater artist Ianne Fields Stewartdescribes their challenge in owning their black, queer, and mixed-race transgender identity with love and magnetism.

  • Monique Wilson, global director of One Billion Rising, has lived with blood cancer for seven years and shows how she’s dedicated her work to the healing practices that transform women's lives in a positive way.

  • You won’t want to miss Kasia Urbaniak, founder and CEO of The Academy, as she and and Tonya explore the "freeze" response around sexual abuse — as well as the intricacies of power dynamics. Kasia’s acuteness in addressing this topic is truly stunning.

  • Actor and singer MJ Rodriguez brings her experience as a transgender female to a vibrant conversation about the status of transgender issues in our world today.

  • Founder of Cosmic Crone Enterprises, Diva Carla, talks about a planet called Nessus and points to significant Nessus aspects and transits that can provide clarity about the patterns, wounds, and challenges caused by sexual abuse.

  • Co-author of The Hostage ChildMichelle Etlin, uncovers her personal experience and research in the field of custody battles to elucidate what she sees as the "anti-mother" bias that plays out in the court system.

  • And for the grand finale of The #MeToo DialoguesRudy Mazzocchi, an expert in the field of biotechnology, focuses on biotech solutions to sexual predation. Wow!

 

Join this necessary and vibrant conversation that will inspire and support you to create lasting change in your life and your community!

RSVP: #MeToo Dialogues


What do you REQUIRE to Thrive?

The energy of the Cancer New Moon and solar eclipse is whooshing us with some big power!

This weekend I will attend Healing Turtle Island ceremonies hosted by Sherri Mitchell - Wena'hamu'gwasit of the Penobscot people of Maine.

She writes: “Our ancestors tell us that the Eastern Door is where we will gather to begin the healing of this land. It is here in the East where first contact was made between the Native peoples and the newcomers. It is here that the first blood was spilled between our people, and the long history of violence began. And, it is here on this same land that the healing must begin.

Our prophecies tell us that when the people of the world rise up and begin standing for the protection of life, a great healing will begin. In order for that healing to take root, the people must return to the place where the initial wounding on this land took place, and join together with one heart and one mind to heal the wounds that they carry within them, and those carried by Mother Earth.”

Send your prayers for the Healing of Turtle Island. I’ll carry them with me.

Read more HERE, and if you are in driving distance, you are invited to come to the ceremony.

 

Sacred Boundaries Part 2: What do you REQUIRE to thrive?

See Sacred Boundaries Part 1: What does it mean to have boundaries? Click Here.

Boundaries are an expression of our sovereignty over our personhood, body, and life.

Today's lesson on boundaries homes in on sovereign.

Sovereign is the truth of yourself that you must claim as you set your boundaries.

You are sovereign. You are Queen, Empress, or King of your resources, especially time and energy.

I invite you to upgrade your thinking about boundaries to a higher vibration.

Consider what you REQUIRE in your life so you can be your highest and best self.
 


 

My priestess Nut Tmu-Ankh used to ask me this question:

What do you REQUIRE to fulfill your mission?

I'd stare into space like a deer in headlights. I had no idea what she was talking about. I barely had a sense of myself as a person worthy of having basic needs met. I was only beginning to allow myself to name my heart's desires.

Am I allowed to REQUIRE something?

As in I must have it; I command it; I have a right to expect it.

Circuits BLOWN!

In the past few months, I find myself asking my clients this question too, because I know it will challenge them as it challenged me.

I know this sense of requiring is how they will break free.

Many women are new to taking up space in the world, asking for what they want, and raising their expectations of how people treat them. In other words, setting boundaries.

Their boundaries land somewhere between “I don't need that much to be OK”, and outright martyrdom and self-sacrifice. One of the side effects can be desperate overcompensation. They tend to lock out the very things they desire and need to feel supported and fulfilled.

How many wise, gifted, and mission-inspired women do I know who settle for crumbs, and deplete themselves doing Divine work without the support and resources they require!

Doing God's work on your energetic dime!

What does that yield? Lots of overworked, depleted, angry women who give up on the work they love and came to Earth to do. Who settle for less than they really want and deserve.

It's blasphemy!

Divine Love did not place you on this earth to share your jewels without the soul nourishment, finances, love, and companionship you need to do the work.

You can forgive yourself for internalizing the idea of service as self-sacrifice.

You learned how to be this way in your mother’s womb.

The Patriarchy has grown fat on the physical, spiritual, and emotional labor of women, especially black and brown women.

You can change your life. When you change, the world will change.

Try this on:

What happens when you stop thinking of need and start thinking of require?

Take a minute right now to list all the things that would make it possible for you to show up powerfully as you, express your highest gifts, feel supported and appreciated for your work.

You list may have things like a beautiful place to live, good food, pleasure, deep sexual connection, high paying clients, money to continue your own spiritual growth, flowers!

Notice where you back-peddle on this. Where are you in the habit of setting or not expecting you'll have what you want.

Where do you still feel unworthy?

YOU as sovereign of your life have the right and the power to command the Universe to supply your needs and desires.

You let the Universe know what you require to be your best, highest, and fulfilled expression of you.

It is a pre-requisite for setting your boundaries in THRIVE mode.

Does this feel really hard for you?

You may need some deep healing, womb clearing, and practice with someone to guide you.

Let's talk about how I can support you.

You can book a no strings chat with me on my calendar

http://divacarla.youcanbook.me

and let me know what you'd like to talk about.


Part 1: Sacred Boundaries - What does it mean to have boundaries?

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Boundaries are up in my world these days. Clients, friends, myself are all feeling the shock of having boundaries violated in some way.

It is time to write a series of articles about boundaries:
What they are and are not
Different kinds of boundaries
How they work
How you find your own boundaries and hold them.
 
Boundaries are not one thing, they are many things.

Some boundaries are hard lines that you do not allow crossing at all.
Some boundaries are frontiers that are areas to explore for growth and adventure and fun.
Some boundaries belong to others in our lives and we learn to respect them as we want to be respected.

Some boundaries are unconscious; sometimes we don’t know they have been violated, we just feel violated, and we think there is something wrong with us because of our feelings. Unhealthy, insecure, or wicked people may take advantage of that.

Some boundaries are conscious, meaning we know what we won’t tolerate and protect that boundary conscientiously, even fiercely.


Boundaries usually mean NO, and boundaries are a prerequisite for YES.

In the Sex, Wealth, and Voice trinity that I teach, boundaries are an aspect of VOICE.
Boundaries require you use your voice to articulate them, first to yourself, and then to others around you.

Boundaries require you to speak up when someone is violating a boundary.

And in many relationships, you have to use your words -- and your voice -- to negotiate the boundaries. It's a vital skill that makes relationships satisfying and fulfilling on every level.

The tragedy is that most of us do not learn to know and own and express our boundaries. Most of us have our boundaries routinely violated from birth in ways that are considered normal socialization. Some of us have our boundaries horrendously violated in criminal, abusive ways, and our journey to wholeness is even more challenging.

We spend our adult lives constructing boundaries. Sometimes they are healthy and serve us well. Sometimes they are unhealthy and cause us to repeat the patterns of disempowerment or abuse we grew up with.

A broad definition of boundaries that I like:
 


To be a sovereign woman who lives in your divine feminine power, you must master boundaries.

That’s why the work I do with women in claiming your powers of sex, wealth, and voice includes a lot of boundary awareness, discovery, and negotiation in each of the powers.

Boundaries cannot be overestimated!

Over the next few moon cycles, I’ll be writing more about the different aspects of boundaries, as well as doing some Facebook live streams in my group Sexy Wealthy Divas. (Join us!)

Boundaries are power! Use them well. 

 

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Hoodathunkit?!

One year ago I was beginning the grueling process of getting my old farmhouse ready to put on the market.
 
I was beginning the hard emotional work of letting go of 24 years of my home, my family, my late husband, my successes, and some broken dreams and failures along the way.
 
I didn't know what what coming... whether Charlie and I would stay together, whether I would have the money to live, a home somewhere, or a room in someone's attic.
 
(I can get melodramatic when facing big change!)
 
Now a year later, I can look back on a magical, blessed year!
 
The house looked great! It sold in 2 months and we were moved out and into a beautiful rental in town in 4 months!
 
The leave-taking from the land was a months-long ceremony that was so gentle and loving!
 
One year later, we are packing up to move to our new and I hope forever home at Hoodathunkit Farm, aka The Beavery!
 
There is a beaver pond with a big dam and multiple lodges. 

Beaverdam close up crop

 
Charlie and I have made a commitment to one another that we grew into naturally, organically. It is sealed by the land.
 
I say that we are marrying the land, together.
 
Already I feel my roots seeking the deep nourishment.
 
I feel my branches and leaves expanding to the sky.
 
I feel my breath, my heart, and my yoni opening to the Earth --
 
And to the Divine Guidance present and waiting for me on the land.
 
We close the purchase on Monday morning, and begin the joyful process of cleaning, clearing the energy, blessing the house, and moving in. 

Packing up the house in town is underway. 
 
I am blessed! I am joyful! I am tired!
 
Moving is unsettling to the system, no matter how joyful and well planned.
 
Self-care is a vital nutrient, and pleasure is the most nurturing of self-care... well, second only to sleep.
 
 
 
Nature is ultimate self-care for me. As an eco-sexual, nature turns me on, and support my orgasm.

Nature = Pleasure!
 
That deserves its own article. 

I offer you the beauty of this gorgeous, fragrant weeping cherry tree in the corner of my new garden.
 
If only I could send the smell!
 
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I am a racist, and it is my problem. What about you?

 

Last year I felt triggered almost every time I tuned into Facebook. The triggers were that there was something wrong with me because I am white. I felt constantly criticized and told I am wrong.

Now, no one was calling me out personally. I was a timid lurker in these mystifying and painful interactions.

The first awareness was Layla Saad's letter to Spiritual White women – and the ongoing online conversation that has not stopped.

I was convicted of my sin, as my Baptist ancestors would say.

My sin is the sin of racism.

Mostly unconscious, endemic, unacknowledged, and unmitigated racism.

Along with white privilege and white fragility and white centering, and appropriation and colonization.

Many many unrepented sins of racism and wielding the weapons of whiteness.

Triggered up my ass.

After a while, I couldn't ignore that this constant triggering was pointed to work I had to do, and changes I had to make. Fortunately, I am in relationships with white women doing the work, and they directed me to teachers.

In January of 2018, I took Catrice M. Jackson's 30 day course for white women. I recommend it to all white women in leadership and have a message and mission to share.

Starbucks ought to hire Catrice to do its “diversity training” day this month.

Catrice's class was hard. Real hard. I hated it. I hated the work that was insisting that I question everything about myself. Every word, thought, deed, and relationship.

The 30 Day Course is the beginning of dismantling my own racism and becoming aware of my weapons of whiteness. The work will last a lifetime.

** Becoming a true and effective ally with people of color is a long journey of failing and learning.

It's wicked uncomfortable. I am not there, not at all.

I confess to being in the performative and resistant phase of the work. I am grappling with things in my life that I don't want to deal with. And I won't come out as changed until I feel it inside my body as a real thing.

And I also don't like getting it wrong.

I can hear Catrice saying, Get over that fast, because black and brown people are dying while you worry about getting is wrong.

Which brings me to why I am writing today.

The Danielle Laporte debacle.

I have to say something.

She is the latest white spiritual woman to be called on the racism embedded in her message and marketing. 

If you are not aware of this story, look up her Facebook page, and read the pinned post with comments. Layla Saad along with dozens of other colleagues lovingly call her into awareness. No, I can't make myself link to it. 

Yesterday I visited Danielle Laporte's website for the first time.

This woman built a worldwide empire of followers, customers, and clients who watch her every move. She launched a new program apparently without a clue of the dismantling racism movement that is going on all around her in her own industry.

She presented skin-surface imagery and program name that looks as if it was designed to offend and wound people of color. And she remains clueless.


Danielle went on the defensive, silencing the voices and effort put out to help her get it right.
Her next steps were to do everything wrong. And she led other women to keep getting it wrong and cling to their own racism.

I hope she will take a “giant ass pause” as one friend said, and invest in her own anti-racism work.

She can make a big difference through her empire if she is willing.

 

And so can I, if I am willing. 


I've been quiet about my own racism process.

I've been afraid.

Shit keeps coming up that I don't want to deal with.  I get over that now.

My mission is to help human beings remember their intimate relationship with nature.

This mission can only be accomplished if racism ceases to exist. Racism is an abomination against nature.

Dismantling racism doesn't happen on the surface. Choosing pictures and words that are inclusive and diverse doesn't touch it.

I believe people of color when they tell me that racism is a white problem and it is white people's responsibility to change it and to change ourselves.

We have no excuse to remain unaware of what we are doing and how each one of us is doing it. 


Dismantling racism, white colonization, white supremacy, white privilege, white fragility, white weapons, and STOPPING systemic genocide of darker skinned people –

This is OUR work, white people.

Black and Brown and Indigenous people are dying and WE are killing them. 

Yes, you and I. 

Start your education. Expose yourself to yourself. 

Pay a woman of color to start the process with you. 

Resources:

http://www.shetalkswetalk.com/ Catrice M. Jackson's page for Anti-racism classes and live workshops for white women 

Layla Saad's Patreon

This is just for starters. You'll find more when you follow these women. 

 


A Manifesting Lesson from Biscuits



Last week I taught Facebook how to make biscuits. 

I made biscuits on a Facebook live video! 

It was the most fun I've had in front of a video camera in my entire life! 

Watch the Video here!



Manifesting Lessons from Biscuits

This simple inspired action turned out to be so rich in rewards and lessons. 

Reading through the comments, I was gratified by how much pleasure people got from a real life, messy elbows cooking lesson!

From me showing up real and raw and covered in flour. 

Viewers thanked me for teaching them a simple skill that took them back to their childhood, and memories of mamas and grandmamas long gone. 

One of my son's friends learned to make biscuits from me when she was in high school, and let me know it's her favorite recipe!

The lady who lived up the road from me when I was growing up on the farm in Tennessee commented with her remembrance of me as a little girl. 

The comments are full of my own personal history. 

Later that evening in my group, Sexy Wealthy Divas, someone asked me about Orgasmic Manifestation, something I teach about in my work. 

I shared a "recipe" for manifesting and realized, it is as simple as the biscuit recipe.

Cooking is a good analogy for manifesting. Think about it: 

You start with an appetite! A desire. A hunger. 

You have a picture of what you want to make. A mouth-watering colorful picture is best. Aromas and flavors and memories of eating a dish add to the pleasure and anticipation. 

You assemble the ingredients. You may have to take a lot of action, like shopping, chopping, and lots of skillful preparation. 

Or the recipe could be super simple, like the biscuit recipe. 

Even so, it takes action, some skill, some practice to manifest biscuits from flour, milk, butter, and heat! (Watch the video to learn the secret tips!)

After a lifetime of making biscuits, I don't need a recipe or even measuring cups. I just do it. 

Manifesting is like that too. 

The simpler and more straight-forward your desire, the easier to manifest it into your experience. 

The clearer your vision, the easier to manifest. 

The more complicated and big and outside your everyday experience your desire, the longer manifestation may take. 

You may have more resistance to doing the necessary actions,
or believing in the truth that it's here,
or knowing that you deserve to have it, 
or you may need to learn and practice new skills to bring it
or, or, or... 

And yet, you most certainly can do it all, and have it all, and with diligence, passion, determination, and persistence, you can manifest anything! 

Keep that mouth-watering vision of the finished recipe in your mind the whole time. 

The most important thing is to not worry about what people think, what it looks like to others, and HAVE FUN with the process. 

Just like I did in the biscuit video. 

I hope you enjoy this tasty buttery lesson in manifesting. 



Send me your question about biscuit baking, manifesting, or my other specialty: Sex, Wealth, and Voice! 


Wet, Dark, Tangled, and Feminine

A reminder to all of us that the Creative Power of the Universe is not a neat, linear, clean process. 

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Creation is Feminine.  

Complex. 

Chaotic. 

Spiraling.

Creation is Wild. Feminine. Dark. Tangled. 

In this way all the elements of creation can fulfill their purpose: 

Cells.

Blood. 

Bone.

Mycelium.

Creepy Crawlies. 

Creation is made from the elements of decay and death. 

The true nature of Creative Power has been misunderstood and demonized. 

Co-opted and cleansed of it mess and its mystery in an attempt to control Death. 

Death is not destruction but transformation. If you destroy death, you kill life. 

Alberto Villoldo shared the wisdom of the elder medicine woman: 

" . . . I remember being told by a medicine woman in the Amazon, 'Do you know why they are really cutting down the rain forest? Because it is wet and dark and tangled and feminine.'" ~Alberto Villoldo

They will cut down the forest.

They will cut us down.

They will give us the weapons and train us to cut each other down, and do their work for them. 

We shall not. 

We put down the weapons we use against each other, and against the Self. 

We let the moss and mold grow in our hair, and tangle our bodies together ... 

We become food for Nature, the foundation of Creation. 

We are birth, death, and rebirth. 

We are the Power, not "They".


When the Holy Thaws

christ is risen with each blade of grass

sprouting from the mud

we listen avidly for the first woodcocks and peepers

spring floods my body like a swollen brook

winter is almost over in Maine

that’s when the Holy Thaws

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WHEN THE HOLY THAWS
 
A woman's body, like the earth, has seasons;
when the mountain stream flows,
when the holy
thaws,
 
when I am most fragile and in need,
it was then, it seemed,
God came
closest.
 
God, like a medic on a field, is tending our souls.
Our horns get locked with desires, but don't hold yourself
too accountable; for all desires are
really innocent.  That is what
the compassion in His
eyes tell me.
 
Why this great war between the countries -- the countries --
inside of us?
 
What are all these insane borders we protect?
What are all these different names for the same church of love
we kneel in together?   For it is true, together we live; and only
at that shrine where all are welcome will God sing
loud enough to be heard.
 
Our horns got locked with the earth and sky in some odd
marriage ritual; so what, don't worry.  We should be proud of
ourselves for everything we helped create in this
magic world.
 
And God is always there, if you feel wounded.  He kneels
over this earth like
a divine medic,
 
and His love thaws
the holy in us.
 
~ St. Teresa of Avila ~
 
 
(Love Poems From God: Twelve Sacred Voices from the East and West --
versions by Daniel Ladinsky)